Day +31 There is no "I" in Team

> So, here I am after what seems like a long absence from my journal. Life
> has been rolling along at a busy pace over here and it's taken me a while to
> get used to my new role as a parent again. It was quite intimidating to
> walk into my own house and witness the sheer mom perfection that was the
> team of Caity, Sandi (Caity's mom), and Elli (my mom). They were a well-oiled machine that was
> processing babies at an alarming rate and it was all I could do there for a
> while to sit back and watch the process. Sandi has gone home and it sounds
> like my mom is gone as of Jan 6th. I was a bit worried at first about
> being left with a strange wife and strange babies in a strange house, but
> now that I'm finding that my strength coming back, I'm not so worried
> anymore. I was really concerned that I would be baby #3 on Caity's care
> list so the fact that I'm getting stronger is a real positive impact on my
> mental state.
>
> I wrote a letter to my donor today. I'm not allowed to include any personal
> details so the letter is basically a "thanks for the bone marrow" type of
> thing. Hallmark was coming up short with the funny organ donor cards so I
> had to write my own. It's somewhere in or around this journal entry
> (wherever Jim puts it) so give it a look if you want. On the other hand, if you
> know of any male living in England, Scotland, or one of those Northern
> European countries who just gave bone marrow, pass along this website so
> that he can get a glimpse of how much he has impacted my life.
>
> Medically, I can't really complain about much. I'm still having a bit of
> trouble regulating my temperature at night time. Sandi said it sounded like
> early pregnancy or menopause, but combined with my weird food cravings, and
> increased sense of smell, the joke is that I'm pregnant. That wasn't bone
> marrow the put into me, it was eggs!!!! It's going to be like that scene
> from aliens all over again. OK, most likely not, but I don't remember much
> about what happened to me in the hospital.
>
> I had a talk with Caity a day ago. We really were not feeling like we were
> a team at all so we spent a few hours in the morning just talking. I guess
> there were days that I was in the hospital that I had a lot of people really
> scared. It's hard to really think about how sick I was. I remember not
> feeling well, but Caity has stories of me hallucinating in my hospital bed,
> and twitching and "dancing". She has promised to write an entry with some of
> her more memorable "Adam moments". Hell, up until yesterday, I've been
> yelling at the TV at Ralph Klein (Alberta's premier) about how his stupid
> stand on gay marriage will affect his election results. I found out last
> night that the election was over two weeks ago. I guess he already won the
> election. Congrats Ralphie.... Now how about pulling your head out of your
> ass and realizing that gay marriage is just as legit and should be embraced
> rather than shunned in today's society.
>
> Anyway, on another subject, Caity and I are finding "our team" again, and I no
> longer see her as just the mother of my children. I wish I could really
> explain how easy it is to get inside your own problems and forget about
> others. Caity was so busy with the kids and the house, and I was busy with
> my fight, and I think we forgot that we were husband and wife somewhere
> along the road.
> Well, we're back as a unit and I think that's helping the house more than
> anything. I really do still think that she's the most beautiful person I've
> ever met. I'm just glad I'm getting the chance to get to know her all over
> again.
>
> That's it for today folks. I've got a doctor's appointment on Monday, so
> that will be the next update. Have a great weekend, and if you happen to be
> weightlifting in Okotoks on Sunday morning, I'll see you there tomorrow.
> I'm just coming for a social visit, but I see myself as a blank canvas for
> Bruce to mold into a champion, so I want to make sure he's got all the
> information about me so that we can plan my return to action. I'm not
> allowed to lift anything anyway until my central line comes out so I'm
> still a month away from any weights.
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> later.
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