Day +54

I've been told that my entries have been too negative lately, and looking back, I guess they're right. Truth be told, I haven't been as bad as the past few entries would indicate, it just so happens that I use my emotions as a tool for writing these entries. If I'm pissed off, and the computer is free, everyone gets to read a pissed off entry. Well, we've come up with a new measuring system for my current state of mind. Here's how it works.

The system is a alpha-numeric system with the number representing my energy level from 1 to 10, and a letter from A to E representing my rage level. A is bad, E is good by the way. Today (or more specifically right now) is a 8D. Good energy, good rage factor, so generally I'm a pretty happy guy right now.

Oh, and thanks to everyone who emailed me with "Fatherly" advice. Special thanks to Rob and Kelly, Pete Rainford, Al Diebel, and Cherie Geering for the awesome emails that made me feel like I wasn't a monster or an outsider. I'm not a fan of cyber-emotions, but if it's the only tool I've got to thank each of you, consider yourself cyber-hugged. Oh, and I've got to put Shannon Cooper at the top of the list. You have a very powerful gift Shannon, and everytime we talk you make me feel great. Just stop phoning around dinnertime okay?

So, my mom is leaving in two days, so I should be writing a lot more after she goes home. The computer at my house is in the unfinished basement, and my mom has been sleeping down there. She's actually got a pretty good setup, but she goes to bed so early that when my night owl instincts take over and I want to write an entry, the computer is usually off limits since my mom is sleeping. I'm moving the computer up to the upstairs tomorrow, so that I will write more and not have to go downstairs into the cold, cold basement.

My new hair is coming along nicely, however, I wish the thirteen hairs on my chin would talk to the rest of my hair regarding growth rate. I've got a perpetual 12 year old boy mustache and goatee despite shaving every day, however my head hair is whispy and sparse. I'm happy to have hair since it gives me something to rub that's still polite to rub in public, but it would be nice to have more.

Well, I'm done here. I'm watching a CSI - Miami where there's a parent that might have tried to suffocate her child so I'm going to go away from the TV. It's hitting too close to home right now. I think I might just give up on CSI shows since last week was a CSI - Las Vegas about a guy with Leukemia. What's next, CSI a show about a couple who has twin babies? How about a show about a guy who works as an accountant in the Oil and Gas Industry? Give me a call if you need any production advice, I seem to be living bits of every show you make, so I might be able to help with the details.

Goodnight Everyone